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may, 2006

May 1rst, 2006

My ap experiences were falling off again due to fear, confusion and some other conflicts in my life. I decided to try to ask for guidance- mostly humbly- once more. I still feel a little guilty about what happened in the “astral plane” last time.

This was a minor AP experience. This time I was floating around my parent’s house in Chesterfield, MO. I knew somehow the house was just a “backdrop” for the dream and that I was not actually “there” or anything. I think I was floating a little bit above my body.

I floated for a moment and that was about it. I didn’t feel as much in control of this AP dream…I felt almost like I was strung up on a laundry line or something and being scooted around while I hung listlessly. It was not nearly as blissful-feeling as the last experience- probably because I was somewhat afraid (of myself-that is). I woke up not long after the floating. I still am not doing so well at actually seeing myself- mostly because I am afraid of that, too.

I had sort of changed my perception of my spirit guide before falling asleep- for personal, hard-to-explain reasons. It is now a young girl- honey-blond hair and about 5 years old. I saw her after I became conscious in my dream. She was sort of floating in my parent’s kitchen and she was transparent. She reminded me of my daughter, but was definitely not. She did not make me feel afraid whatsoever…but gave me comfort instead. I think she was my spirit guide in the new form I was more comfortable with at the time. I now call her “Laurelie.”

I have always known that my spirit guide would cease to come in the form of a man when I became more comfortable with her/him- whatever. Spirit guides do not have fixed forms, but come in the form that you will be most comfortable with. Her “real” form is probably a spiral of white/irredescent light.

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